Yasmine
Yasmine
Wow oh wow my baby has finally hit 21. I remember back when we were 15 years old in english class we were always goofing around and laughing over such silly things
I wanted to do something special this year so I hope you enjoy the journey! Please continue to scroll down to witness how much I love you hayati 🥹
I always thought you deserved something more than a poetic letter from me. Even though it would bring yoiu to tears I wanted to spark multiple emotions this time
Yasmine you mean the world to me, I seriously love you more than anyone else in this world and the more I say it they more I love you.. sooooo
I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU
POV: Susu being born ---
Susu: (sleeping, silently, no crying just quiet cuteness)
Amo Nabil: We should name her Petra bc I obviously love Jordan 🇯🇴
Khalto Alaa: Nahhh. We should name her Matcha bc she obviously loves the smell of grass 🍵🌱
Doctor: Her heartbeat... it's calm, gentle... almost floral.
Suddenly, a breeze passed through the hospital window, carrying the scent of jasmine flowers blooming outside in the courtyard. Everyone fell silent. The sunlight danced on her face. Even Baby Susu stirred slightly as if agreeing with what the universe whispered.
Mama (smiling, still dazed with love): Yasmine. Her name is Yasmine.
Baba (softly): Just like the flower. Strong, beautiful, and full of grace.
Narrator (Me, Momo, duh?!): Ok this sounds too fake for me but whatever. I want to think that is how they named you Yasmine but it was probably picked ages before 😭
Before when you were a baby and not my baby, you were born smelling like flowers and roses. You came out of this world to two loving parents who were shocked HUNGRY baby Dania didn't eat you away in the womb. You were the cutest baby ever and I always wanted to hold you and hug you. I remember the first time I saw a photo of you as a baby all I thought of was how adorable our daughter might be in the future. The day you were born and you were held by your loving parents was the day this world became a more beautiful place. The amount of innocence you emitted created this positive envrionemnt around you where you went and I hope inshallah one day for our daughter to repeat what her mother was able to do.
I wish I could have been there to grow up with you. You seemed like such a polite and smart child who was always curious about the world around you. Your cute little baby face in elemntary school must've made you the most popular kid in class. I remember when I was in elemntary school how much of a trouble maker I was. I used to get in trouble all the time and I was always the one who was sent to the principal's office. Maybe if we were in the same school taking the same classes you would have been my partner in crime, I could have gotten us in so much trouble. I feel like you'd somehow get out of the punishment and I'd just get sent to the wall alone during recess and you'd walk by me laughing LOL. I wasn't the smartest either during elemntary school , I used to seriously mess around and not take anything seriously. I was always the class clown and I never really cared about my grades. You on the other hand I can tell that everyone already wanted to be your friend and you were the one who everyone ran to first when the teacher said go pick a partner. I would have ran to you too becuase of how smart and serious you were (and also i would have deffiently had a crush on you silly goose 😘).
Ahh yes the time where I met the love of my life. I remember the first day of grade 10 english class where I sat infront of you and suddenly I started to make you laugh as well as everyone else around me. Hearing a new laugh always suprises me, but your laugh was the only one I wanted to hear from that day on. I turned around and saw the most beautiful girl in my entire life laughing and smiling from something silly I said. From that day on I started to purposley look forward to our english classes together every single day. I remember how we used to sit next to each other at one point in the portables always making fun of each other but always competiting for the better marks in class. You were so surpised that I always out performed you in class when I purposley acted like an idioit to get your attention and to simply make you laugh. I remember you started yelling "HE ACTS STUPID BUT HES NOT WTF" and that just made me smile for the rest of the week. I still act like that because of how much it used to impress you, my inital "hustle in silence" came from you. At the beginning of the semester I remember i switched into your science class and we had the most iconic group. We used to laugh all period together with everyone else around but I would always be there to help you understand certain topics that you struggled with vecause I knew you werent a STEM girky, you were always meant to be a law girly duhhhhh. Kinda crazy i always did better in english than you though.. I guess I'm just better you nerddddd. I also remember one day in english class when we had to write a research paper and present the idea to the class. I though that if we presented on the first day, we can spend ore time focusing on having fun and studying for exams, get something annoying outt the way. I somehow persuaded you to present on the first day with me and we went outside in the cold month of january to practice our presentations. You were so nervous but I seriously remember how much more confident you got after each trial run with me giving you advice and listening to your speech. You ended up presenting right before me and you fricking killed it. You said it was the best idea ever since this huge weight got lifted off your shoulders and you couldnt stop thanking me for my support. That semester I used to dream of marrying some woman, she was wearing a white veil and a beautoful white dress, as thr weeks went on it ended up being you under the veil, smiling looking into my eyes. Although I was still a kid and very immature, I knew you were the one, but I didnt know when the time would come. I swear one of the funniest days of my entire life is when we did the frog disection together. I did all the cutting and you were just in the background screaming and running away whenever I would cut off a leg or organ. I learnt there and then that maybe being a surgeon isn't as cool as I thought, but hey it sure made you laugh. I remember you were so scared of the frog that you didn't even want to touch it, but I was there to help you through it. I was always there to help you through everything, and I still am. Fast forward to the beginning of grade 11, I got taller and my voice got deeper so initally meeting you was a suprise for both of us. I did not see you much that year, but whenver we ran into each other in the hallways it would seriously be the highlight of my day. You don't understand how happy I was for you when you started doing your co-op work placement at a law firm because not only were you getting closer to achieving your dreams but you kept up that image in my head of becoming a bad ass lawyer in the future. Months passed and we haven't seen each other, not until near the end of grade 12. One day I saw you parking the car on my way to class and we got to talk after school about how far we both made it in our lives. We got our licences, we both were planning to attend university and you still were going for your dream of being a lawyer. Your eyes lit up when I remmebered you wanted to be a lawyer and suddenly that flame lit up again in my heart. I liked you again, but I was too young and immature. That was the best time of my highschool life. Everyday I would hang out with my friends and mess around but I also got to see you every day at lunch and we would just roast each other and laugh endlessly. When I found out that you were going to come to the Oscars just because I was hosting it, I honestly felt that I had to give the performance of my life. I kept looking for you in the crowd whenever I would say my lines because I just wanted to see your smile. In the movies whenever the main character pays attentuon to someone in the crowd, it is almost like a spotlight is placed directly over them. Hayati that night the spotlight wasn't placed on me while on stage, it was beamining into your beautiful smile reflecting the entire room. When it was time to break our fasts, no one came to check on me. I was thrilled to make everyone else happy but I myself felt alone suddenly, that no one cared about me. Suddenly, you ran up and asked if I was ok and if I needed any food or water. You cared about me. Me? Why? I'm just tonights clown, but in your eyes I was something more. That is when I fell in love with you; and I fell hard.
The previous chapters of your life were impactful, but this is my favourite chapter. June 16th, 2022. I think I like you. Well I lied through my own teeth huh... I KNEW I LOVED YOU.
Since that night, I have never been so happy in my life. Everyday I now wake up with such an important purpose to work hard and be discipline. For you ya albi. I do everything for you. In our first year I promised to always visit you when I could, and I did that. Every single friday I was at Carleton hanging out with you studying (well mostly yapping and eating food LOL). i remember this was the happiest and most depressing time of my life. I was going through such a big change and no one seemed to believe in me.. but you did. Why? You saw something in me that no one else did and maybe that is the only reason why I did not end up failing to achieve my dream. That massive jump I made could not have been done with your confidence. I did not want to study something I had no passion for and I wanted to learn how to build cool things on my own like Tony Stark. I loved building computers and tinkering with devices since I was a kid, so you pushed me to heal my inner child. Every day I would study non stop, grind out all my assignments and prep for midterms and test at the same time, but fridays I always tried to make myself fully available. I wanted to spend the entire day with you and you only hayati. You were my stress free day where I got to be in touch with my soft side again hanging out with you. I used to hate Carleton, but you made me love it. I seriously love this university so much now and you were the one who changed me. Maybe it was a sign from God that I heard back from Carleton CS before uOttawa, and I accepted it in a heart beat because it meant I would be more close with you. I know now that i'm essentially suffering from success, I never can see you since I'm always landing internships and what not, but every dollar is for OUR future, not mine. I want to spoil you endlessly once we finally can get married soon inshallah. We went through so much together during these years at university, and now that you are almost done, I feel bittersweet about how far we came as a couple. I tried to always be there for you, cheering whenever you landing an internship or a good role in an EC (GO CUSA SUSU WOOT WOOT) but I wish i got to be on campus more with you 🥺 Seeing you study alone with your yummy sweet coffee and cozy hoodie on makes me want to just forget about our future and to live in the moment with you. I guess I can say that you ground me back to earth susu, my little anchor susu hehehehe. I love you so much and I hope you know that. I always wanted to be the one who made you happy, and I hope I did that. You are the love of my life, and I will always cherish the moments we had together. I better be able to watch you walk the stage this spring 😡.
If I cold get a dollar for every time you told me "shhh" whenever I rambled about my failures, I would have been able to marry you right now. Your sweet angelic voice always calms me down from a bad day and when you reassure me that everything will be ok, I really do believe you baby. You have this way of always making me feel happy and relaxed whenver I'm on the verge of giving up. That is why I always want you to be on my side, so I too can look after you. There is not that many people in this world where I can truly say I care for them. On that list, you are on the top. No one beats you hayati. I care so much about you now that I've been with you that our moods are always in sync, if my baby isnt happy then I sure can't be, especially if I havent made an effort and resulted to make her feel better. Anytime you get overstimulated or fustrated or tried or exhuasted or sad, I want to always be the first person to hear your feelings. Even though I don't emit as much as you do when it comes to talking about emotions, I always want to hear you out and understand what you are juggling with.
Everyday you look even more beautiful than the previous day. I don't know how you pull it off, but seriously you continue to glow up every day and I'm starting to think that you already were out of my leauge but now I might need to file for bankruptcy (u cutie patootie mwah) 💔
From the days of us arguing who's the better artist between Kanye and Taylor, to watching movies together on Discord, to grabbing lunch while I'm at work, to now when you come over and visit my family, I will always enjoy your company and our silly fun convos.
Every day now all i ever want to do is finish work and come home to you studying or cooking a yummy meal. I want to live that part of our lives already,, exploring the world, crashing weddings, creating memories just like how we always dreamed to. I swear I would drop everything in my life if we could even go on a costco trip together, just the two fo us being big kids and doing mature activites yk.
I'm currently typing this with my back achng, tummy empty, head hurting and overall in a poopy mood, but I know that if you were here laying on my lap, sleeping away like a princess, all that toxicity would escape from my body due to the pure positive cozy energy you reak off 😆.
I always imagine how magical the weeks of our honeymoon will be. The places we might visit, the memories created and even the food we could eat (i know we are big backs but so what huh). I also can't wait to work out with you, play sports together and even go for morning jogs like some old folk. I don't care what the task is, I want to do it with you and only you and if i don't then I know my life will forever be misreable. Friends come and go, but you are my family now and I'll make sure you'll never ever leave me ok?
I love how funny you are too. The fact is that i am the funniest person in the world so it's hard for others to make me laugh, but you always fricking do. You legit can do anything and i swear im crying of laughter. You might not be as creative as me but man theres some moments u just make me pass out from laughter. My little silly girl 🙈.
I love how dedicated you are to achieving your goals in life. Whenever there is something you want, no matter how hard it is, you go out of your way and tackle down that goal and achieve it. You did it so many times. I swear if first year susu saw how crazy she turned out in fourth year, she might have a mental breakdown herself by trying to piece together how did susu fricking do it. Dw tho, past me would get her ice cream cause ive been a nice soul since I met u silly goose.
This is the end hayati, I hope you enjoy these gifts I got for you. it wasn't too hard on me to get everything sorted so no fighting me on this ok missy? I think each gift is simple but clever enough to perfectly suit you. I hope they make you happy and I hope to continue making you happy everdya, and inshallah one day I hope to make you the most happy on our wedding day. Soon this ugly and depressing phase of our lives will be over. I'm trying my best to secure our future so we can forever be comfortable and never need to worry about our future as long as we are together. I want to thank you for being so patient with me as I know that there are many other men out there who might seem good enough but theres only one of me and one of you, and we are soulmates. And who knows, maybe one day I can prove it to you with a ring and a... trip to palestine????? DUN DUN DUNNNNNNNNNNNNN
i love you hayati, peace out susu duck 🦆.
DUNNUN DUNNUN -- DUNNUN DUNNUN
Love, hamoodeh ❤️